Saturday Situations

Hello again. How are you? We had a pretty busy and semi-relaxing day. It started out with me going to see the immunologist. I have a swollen lymph node at the base of my neck/skull. I am pretty worried about it because about 2 weeks ago it swelled up and really hurt. He said that I will most likely get it removed if it does not go all the way down. He gave me a script for a z-pak and a slip for some blood work. We shall see.

James (yes I know you are reading this James)feels strongly that I need to get a second opinion. We came to blows over this. When James feels passionate about something he can push the issue while sometimes (okay most of the time) I end up getting defensive. I trust my docs but once I took time to think, I realized that if my condition is so serious then why isn't it being treated seriously? So---I am going to work on finding a specialist at Hopkins or something.

We took Connor to get his hair cut (he looks super cute) and then went to a garden center, lunch, Roots organic market, and Lowes. Oh big news! I had a good idea for the garden! Whoo hoo!!

Of course while at Lowes I had stomach issues but while dealing with that I realized that I can be a pain---frustrating and everything that goes along with it. I immediately went and apologized to James, because he deserves the apology. Why am I such a pain? Lots of crap----getting defensive, not giving my opinion, not living up to who I want to be, etc....Do I want to be a pain? Hell no.....but I know that it would be unrealistic for me to say that I will never be a pain. I mean...come on...all the therapy in the world won't take that away! LOL.

I think that every Sunday I am going to make a weekly to do list and put it on here. It makes it there---out in the open and is a physical reminder of what I am trying to accomplish--both internally and externally. Hmmmm....that's a good idea.

Anywho---rambling once again!! Tomorrow is Easter....going to go and get Paige and then taking them up to my parents for dinner and an Easter Egg hunt. Happy Easter to you all!